Saturday, September 17, 2011

Pagmumuni-muni Ng Isang Malapit Nang Malaglag Mula sa Calendaryo

I have been thinking that for my birthday this year, I want things to be different. I want to give something back, instead of it being all about me.

Ayun tuloy, duty ako on my birthday. Itinadhana. Hahaha. No birthday leave for us.

I spent my birthday as I spent my Christmas last year, in the hospital with my patients. "What a privelege it is to be of service." That's what I'm trying to practice until it is ingrained in my heart. Until I can truly say that it is a pleasure to be of service, even in the most inconvenient time and ways. It is not easy. I'm no Mother Theresa. I have a quick temper and I'm very impatient.

Side tracked. I often get that. I often lose sight of what is important. I lose sight of Him and become so engrossed with myself. And from there service becomes a chore. A burden. Joyless service can drain you dry. Until you can give no more.

So parang pala tayong mga BP app, from time to time dapat ma-callibrate, para makapag bigay pa rin ng accurate reading, and avoid morbidity and mortality. How to callibrate? Of course, get back to God. He is the Great Technician.

To use doctor speak, we must do our daily rounds with the Great Attending.

As a surgery resident, it is part of our training to do rounds with our attendings. It is during these rounds that the attending can teach us, observe us, and show us things we will not learn from reading books and journals. Tricks of the trade so to speak. At the same time, it is during these rounds that we are checked and audited and held accountable for what we do for our patients. We are taught to refer and confirm all our decisions and actions for our patients. So we could be better surgeons, so we could serve our patients better.

In the same way, God is the Great Physician, the Great Attending. Doing daily rounds with Him, meeting with Him in prayer and quiet time, and in Bible study and daily devotions make us better and make us get to know Him better. He gives instructions for us to carry out, we refer back in prayer, we are commended and also corrected.

How happy am I that God isn't through with me yet. I rejoice in His promise that He will not abandon the good work He has started in us. He is faithful to complete it.

Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, REJOICE. ~ Philippians 4:4


Friday, September 2, 2011

Writer's Block No More

I've been wanting to post religiously to this blog. I guess I get side tracked too easily. I often think that I have lots of things to write about. There's this train of thought that goes on and on inside my mind, but I just can't seem to put into words, into writing.

One of my problems, I guess, is I'm not sure what kind of theme I want to project in writing. Most blogs I enjoy reading are very clear in what they are about. Then I realize that I'm thinking too much on what people will say when they read my posts, like will they like it? Will they be able to relate? Will they find what I write helpful or at least entertaining?

And the big realization is that I should not worry. I should not worry because I might be the only person who cares about my blog, about what I write. I might be the only one who reads it. So there. I am going to stop worrying and write for myself and my God. Because this is all about Him and how wonderful He has made my life to be.


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