Shoe Philosophy

When I was younger, I used to wear a lot of platform shoes, high heels, boots, and wedges. Even my rubber slippers were elevated. Part of the reason for my shoe preference before was because of my short stature and part of it was because I thought it was a girly and kikay statement. Even on my first 24-hour duty as a medical clerk I wore black leather boots with my uniform. Most of us did. And my feet didn't ache. I was so used to wearing heels for looong periods of time. I continued to do so through my internship days. But when I was applying for my residency in surgery I dropped most of my kikay ways. I didn't wear eye make up anymore, I left my dangling chandelier earings at home, and I stopped wearing heels. My hair was most of the time tied in a pony tail. I had just dyed my hair golden blond back then, and I dyed it dark brown again. All of these I did because I didn't want my seniors and attendings think that I was too girly for surgery. I thought that I needed to project this no-nonsense girl aura, practical, and 100% no frills.

I missed my heels. It lent me confidence by adding to my height. Eventually, I learned to love flats, ballet and baby shoes. I looked and scoured for girly and comfy flats. And I learned to be confident with my height. From time to time I still wore heels, but not so much as I used to. I started to wear minimal make up, and my hair is now dyed golden blonde (but it really looks dark blonde). I no longer have the need to look like a boy to be taken seriously as a surgery resident.

My shoes are now more laid back, comfy, practical but still pretty. With ig-so-soft heels. :)

Starbucks to Turn Handcrafted Beverages (RED) on World AIDS Day - December 1st 2011

Starbucks to Turn Handcrafted Beverages (RED) on World AIDS Day - December 1st 2011

Be Inspi(RED)

Started on 1st December 1988, World AIDS Day is about raising money, increasing awareness, fighting prejudice and improving education. World AIDS Day is important for reminding people that HIV has not gone away, and that there are many things still to be done.

Here is a link showing the miraculous power of AIDS medicine to give people the opportunity of a future where once there was no hope.

There is hope. God always leaves a remnant.

Join (RED). Be inspi(RED).

Pagmumuni-muni Ng Isang Malapit Nang Malaglag Mula sa Calendaryo

I have been thinking that for my birthday this year, I want things to be different. I want to give something back, instead of it being all about me.

Ayun tuloy, duty ako on my birthday. Itinadhana. Hahaha. No birthday leave for us.

I spent my birthday as I spent my Christmas last year, in the hospital with my patients. "What a privelege it is to be of service." That's what I'm trying to practice until it is ingrained in my heart. Until I can truly say that it is a pleasure to be of service, even in the most inconvenient time and ways. It is not easy. I'm no Mother Theresa. I have a quick temper and I'm very impatient.

Side tracked. I often get that. I often lose sight of what is important. I lose sight of Him and become so engrossed with myself. And from there service becomes a chore. A burden. Joyless service can drain you dry. Until you can give no more.

So parang pala tayong mga BP app, from time to time dapat ma-callibrate, para makapag bigay pa rin ng accurate reading, and avoid morbidity and mortality. How to callibrate? Of course, get back to God. He is the Great Technician.

To use doctor speak, we must do our daily rounds with the Great Attending.

As a surgery resident, it is part of our training to do rounds with our attendings. It is during these rounds that the attending can teach us, observe us, and show us things we will not learn from reading books and journals. Tricks of the trade so to speak. At the same time, it is during these rounds that we are checked and audited and held accountable for what we do for our patients. We are taught to refer and confirm all our decisions and actions for our patients. So we could be better surgeons, so we could serve our patients better.

In the same way, God is the Great Physician, the Great Attending. Doing daily rounds with Him, meeting with Him in prayer and quiet time, and in Bible study and daily devotions make us better and make us get to know Him better. He gives instructions for us to carry out, we refer back in prayer, we are commended and also corrected.

How happy am I that God isn't through with me yet. I rejoice in His promise that He will not abandon the good work He has started in us. He is faithful to complete it.

Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, REJOICE. ~ Philippians 4:4

Cheers!

Writer's Block No More

I've been wanting to post religiously to this blog. I guess I get side tracked too easily. I often think that I have lots of things to write about. There's this train of thought that goes on and on inside my mind, but I just can't seem to put into words, into writing.

One of my problems, I guess, is I'm not sure what kind of theme I want to project in writing. Most blogs I enjoy reading are very clear in what they are about. Then I realize that I'm thinking too much on what people will say when they read my posts, like will they like it? Will they be able to relate? Will they find what I write helpful or at least entertaining?

And the big realization is that I should not worry. I should not worry because I might be the only person who cares about my blog, about what I write. I might be the only one who reads it. So there. I am going to stop worrying and write for myself and my God. Because this is all about Him and how wonderful He has made my life to be.

Measure Your Life in Love

I'm praying for a love story just like my lolo and lola's. ♥ ♥ ♥

the text within the collage is taken from their "theme song" which my lolo also sang for my lola when we celebrated their 5oth wedding anniversary 8 years ago...

"My love is deep as the sea
...that flows forever.
You ask how long will it end,
I tell you, never."

iba talaga kapag si Lord and author ng ating love story...♥

I have been brimming with thoughts and reflections this past year. And it's such a shame that I haven't put them into writing and actions. 


I'm hoping that this year will be different.


No, that's not a new year's resolution. 


But I do hope to be more resolved.


Dear Lord, I thank You for this new year you have given us. May you bless us with countless possibilities to be fruitful. And when we encounter these possibilities may we be able to recognize that these came from You. May we be always grateful for your patience, kindness and love for us. As Max has put it, "Life is racing by and if we aren't careful, (we) will look up & our shot at it will have passed us by." Lord, help us not to waste your blessings. Cheers.u